I believe that we all have a life purpose – the reason we exist – the reason we were born. Now of course I have no way of knowing if that is true or not – but believing it makes me feel important and helps to give me the courage to do the things that matter to me.
What I am sure about is that when I am doing things that are in alignment with my life purpose I feel fulfilled – I feel that I am making a difference – that the world is a better place because I am here and that is a good feeling.
I have been observing my brain in the week leading up to my book being published tomorrow. Why does it treat me so harshly – making me anxious and stopping me from sleeping?
I am crystal clear on why I wrote this book – I have something to say. Over the last 30 years or so I have learnt a lot of lessons and I want to share these. I am proud of the book. I invested hundreds of hours of early morning time writing it and I really hope people will read it.
So why am I so scared?
I’m feeling rather pleased with myself! I have been working hard on the final push to get my book finished. I have just finished the last chapter ‘Do your best work – live your best life’.
I have spent quite a lot of time over the last few years exploring the difference between doing ‘most work’ and doing ‘best work’. Historically I was a most work sort of girl – I have a huge capacity for work, first to arrive, last to leave and choosing to work many weekends. I thought this was the way to make most progress and progress was important – I was passionate about the work I was doing. It was fun to a point but frequently I was exhausted and overwhelmed.
I believe it was Kevin Nations who came up with the metaphor of the Magician and the Mule.
STOP PRESS! I woke up to the horrendous news this Monday morning. It is a very sad Vegas I am leaving behind. God Bless America!
I’m in Las Vegas for the very first time! I was expecting it to be big but the reality outstrips every expectation! It is the most ridiculous place I have ever been! I don’t know if I love it or hate it but I do know that after two days I need to get out into some real world!
The passage of time is a mysterious thing. Remember when you were young how long a year seemed… the wait for Christmas and Birthdays. Even at university there seemed to be time – time for hanging around, time for playing all night Risk, time for sitting on the lawn drinking, chatting and planning life.
Then everything happened at once – career – children… no time for anything much at all except making a living, getting the kids into the right schools, moving house, … and endless whirl of survival and striving to claw the way up the ladders.
On Sunday morning I was out for a run in the Yorkshire Wolds where my mum now lives. The hedgerows were amazing. Snowdrops everywhere and a few early daffodils already in bud. Still no sign of leaves on the trees but that certainty that they are coming is a wondrous thought.
We had a traditional Sunday lunch at my brother’s house – three generations – Mum, me and my brother and his girlfriend, and my son and his girlfriend.
I became very aware of the passing of time… and the wonder of the universe in its cycles.
The snowdrops are special to me –
I was skiing last week. On Wednesday evening I was reflecting on my skiing journey. I was feeling pretty pleased with myself because I was in an off piste lesson group with an old friend who has always been a much better skier than me. Learning to ski has been a long hard slog for me and the fact that I am now even using the words ‘off piste’ in connection with my skiing seems amazing!!
Thursday was a different story…
I love making my new year resolutions and I have spent the last couple of days thinking about what I want for 2017.
As many of you will know by now I think it is really important that you live your life in balance – and for me that means balancing 3 areas.
- ‘me’ – this is things that I want for myself – to be the best me I can be. I break this down into health, environment, finances and adventures and dreams.
- ‘those I love’ – things I want to do for my primary relationship, family, friends and the community.
- ‘work’ – what I want to achieve at work – so that I will be doing my best work.
Courage is one of my core values. It comes from the word ‘cour’ to speak from the heart.
After the exhausting cities of India it was a huge relief to spend some time trekking in Nepal in the mighty Himalayas. We walked all day and at night stayed in simple teahouses where we ate Dal Bhat and slept on very hard beds!
The trekking was much harder work than I expected! Perhaps I should have thought about it more – in the UK we have a few mountains over 1000 meters – in Nepal they have a few over 8000 meters!!
The trails were well kept (save for those damaged by the earthquake) and nearly all steep sections were stone steps. One morning we walked about 300 meters down (steps all the way) to the bottom of a valley – I’ve never felt my knees shake that way before! Then over 1000 meters up the other side (steps all the way) – by the end of that everything was shaking!. I love trekking but I did find it hard to stay motivated when I knew we had about 4 hours of steps straight up a mountain ahead of us!
Jam! Jam! was the cry of our guide… which he told us was Nepalese for ‘Let’s get started!’
It became a favourite saying of our group. Whenever we stopped for a breather someone would say Jam Jam! – and we would move off again!